Life Lessons, Personal

The Father to the Fatherless.

Happy Father’s day! I don’t know about you, but I thank God for my dad. I am so blessed to have him in my life and I am grateful because He is still here with us. You may be reading this and you may feel like this is the worst day of your life. You see children happily skipping around the park, holding firmly to their father’s hand, while here you are, wishing that he could still be here for you. If you are this person, I would like to encourage you.

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It’s such an encouraging thing to know that even if your earthly father is not bodily present, you have a heavenly father who is with you wherever you may be. Can you imagine the King of Kings and The Lord of Lords to be YOUR father? I mean, imagine with me. The King of Kings and the Lord of Lords wants to have a relationship with you! Yes, you. It’s just amazing to think that God, who is so mighty and so holy, has this desire to be your heavenly father. How can He be our heavenly father? He can be our heavenly father if we accept Jesus as our Lord and Savior. If we do that, we can now be called His sons and daughters.

I don’t know what your situation is today and I don’t know if you already have a relationship with God, but one thing is for sure. There is one thing that I know. I know, that even if you are fatherless, the God who made this earth is calling you by name and is telling you that He loves you! HE LOVES YOU! He loves you so much that He sent Jesus to die on the cross for you. Such amazing love! If you here are sad and lonely this father’s day, I want you to know that you are loved! You can celebrate and the only reason why you can is because you have a Heavenly father. Allow me to celebrate with you! Happy Father’s day to your dad! May You enjoy His presence today.

If you want to have a relationship with Jesus by accepting Him as Lord and Savior, send me an e-mail at shekinahbongco@gmail.com I’d love to lead you to a prayer that will make you do just that. God bless you! YOU are loved! 🙂

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Personal, Testimony

Confessions of a teenage godmother

A year ago, my cousin felt extreme pain on her right arm due to The Big C. Yep. Cancer. I don’t want to give out details because I can still vividly recall everything, and it hurts me.  Anyway, a year ago, when she told us that her doctors told her that she only had 6 months to live, I felt this burden in my heart to go to her the next day. She texted us on a Thursday and I do not have classes on Fridays, so right after praying for her, I asked my mom if I may go to her place in order for me to take care of her. Mom was gracious enough to say yes, and from then on, my Friday mission to help her started. There’s this certain joy that serving her gave me. As much as I would like to recall those wonderful days, I’d want to focus on a new season that God has given me. I call this new season, “On Fridays We Wear Lavender: EXTENDED EDITION!

Confessions of a teenage godmother

There is a story behind the name of this new season. You see, when I was still doing my mission work, my cousin would always tell me to instruct everyone to decorate her wake with lavender and fuchsia pink because both of those are her favourite colors. When she went to heaven, true enough, our family decorated her wake with those colors. And I told myself that my Fridays will ALWAYS be reserved for service. That is, service for people who need help. True enough, God gave me a great opportunity to finally make this happen. God opened doors for me to take care of my little nephew and godson, my cousin’s youngest, Raizen. I thank God for giving me such a great opportunity. He will be with us for him to continue studying as a Kinder 2 student. I know it will be a handful, but if this is what needs to be done in order for change to happen inside of him, then I’d be glad to be a part of that transformation.

It is currently his third day in our lovely home and it is also his second day in school. I am responsible for feeding, clothing, and teaching him. In other words, I am in charge of his well-being. So far, there have been radical changes inside of him. He has been telling me that he feels loved and accepted. He also repeatedly say thank you to our family for accepting him in our home. It is great that he has changed a lot since we got him. He became more obedient, more respectful and more responsible than ever. I praise God for allowing our family to be used by Him. Also, I am seeing certain changes inside of me. I suddenly became this responsible and caring person that makes sacrifices for his wellbeing [I must say, I did not know that I had this side. EVER]. Instead of making plans for myself, I now plan to make my schedule work for the both of us. Furthermore, instead of thinking of myself, I am now thinking of him and I am now thinking of ways for him to feel that he is loved and accepted.

I would also like to thank God for allowing me to study Psychology. It helped our family a lot, especially in helping him in his healing process. I cannot disclose information here, but there are certain areas that needed the field of Psychology and I thank God for using me to understand certain things that only psychologists can.

I’d like to end this by stating that yes, I may be a teen and yes, I may be young, but I will never let that hinder me from allowing God to use me mightily for His glory. One day, I know that all this hard work will pay off. I know that our God is the God who restores, heals and transforms. Allow Him to use you today! Be available and be ready to step out of your comfort zone! God will use you mightily today! Good day and may God bless you! 🙂

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Life Lessons, Personal, Testimony

To Those Who Can’t Wait

I wanna be a tween said the kid,

I wanna be a teen said the tween,

I wanna go to grade school said the pre-schooler,

I wanna go to high school said the grade schooler,

I wanna go to college said the high schooler,

I wanna work and earn said the college student,

I wanna have a boyfriend said the single lady,

I wanna have kids said the newly engaged wife,

I wanna be old and enjoy my retirement money said the long time employee,

I wanna be in college again said the long time employee,

I wanna be in high school again said the college student,

I wanna be in grade school again, said the high school student,

I wanna be in pre-school again said the grade school student.

I wanna be a tween again said the teen,

I wanna be a kid again, said the tween.

It’s funny how we wish to be in a particular season of life and how we don’t appreciate the beauty of the present. The beauty of your current season. Today. Now.

I used to say those “I wanna be”, but it is only now when I realize that I haven’t lived my life fully because of my desire to be someone else and somewhere else. I am currently a college student and I’ve been having these bugging thoughts on my mind. Some of them are hilarious such as “I want to be in a relationship… NOW!!!”. Another would be my desire of earning money due to the fact that I turned eighteen meaning I can already (well, legally) earn. I don’t want to be a freeloader in the family. But as I reflect and ponder on my season as a college student, there has been this realization that I must enjoy this season because I will only be in this season once and when my time’s up in this season, there’s no turning back.

This reminded me of several verses in the Bible which are Ecclesiastes 3:1-8. This says that, and I quote from the King James Version,

“To every thing there is a season and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;

A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence and a time to speak;

A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war and a time of peace.”

This is a great reminder for people like me, who can’t wait. People who can’t wait to be promoted, people who can’t wait to have a boyfriend, people who can’t wait to graduate and make a living, and people who can’t wait upon the Lord. It says in Ecclesiastes 3:11, that “He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.”.

If you are a person who just can’t wait and is in a season of waiting just like me, enjoy every moment you have in your current season today. May we learn to put our trust in the Lord so that we will have peace and joy in our current season today.

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Decrescendo

Decrescendo (n). A gradual reduction in force or sound. That is what the dictionary says. That is exactly what my music teacher taught me. A gradual decrease of volume. From loud to soft. It has never been the other way around.

The thing is, you are my decrescendo. You came into my life so alive, so energetic. You are like a little ball of sunshine that I cannot contain. You light up my darkest night. You came to me so loud that I can’t even hear my cries of pain when depression hits me at night. You are my joy. You are such a great force that you make my frown upside down. That is a big thing, you know. You are a big thing. You are my big thing. I find myself craving for you. Your energy, your force, your delightful sound. Every time I hear your voice, it is as if I am this mighty warrior that can slay my biggest dragon. You changed the way I view myself. When you entered my life, I knew, that you’re someone special.

But… What happened to you. Did I suck all your energy, that caused you to decrease your force? Is it true that I am this emotional vampire that just sucks the life out of you? Why did you let the black hole suck the joy that you can give me. Ohh.. This is not a good thing. I can start hearing my cries of pain once again… I can start feeling my smile slowly giving up to the call of gravity. What is happening, I ask myself. Oh, you have no idea how you’ve made an impact in my life by the way, so I cannot just ask you what happened. But I guess now I know it’s clear to me. Now I know what you are to me. You gave life to one of my most neglected musical symbols. Oh great. A vivid recollection passed by my memory lane. All the songs that you’ve sung to me seem to decrease in its volume. I am sure that I didn’t press the mute button. But it’s alright. I’ve accepted it already. This is how you’re designed. You’re designed to make a strong impact in my musical piece, but you’re also designed to leave soon. I did not choose this but this is how it’s supposed to be. Besides, you’re a decrescendo. You are MY decrescendo.

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A work in progress

Just recently, I’ve had an encounter with an anonymous user in my ask fm account. He pointed out how judgemental, baduy (sorry naman ha. HAHAHA), and nosey I can be. I just knew that that was the end of me (So much for being a drama queen Haha). I just knew at this time, it’s confirmed, I am worthless. Who am I kidding? That is probably the biggest insult that I could tell Jesus. Oh and by the way, prior to this encounter, I’ve got friends who tweeted that they have these haters that seem to ask them on the same app or website. In my mind, I was like… WHY. Why would these haters hate on these people. They’re such amazing people… Anyway, so much for the side story, going back to my story… The typical Shekinah reaction to such words (yeah know, judgemental, baduy and nosey) would be self-pity and insecurity (are those even reactions? IDK. Lol). But seriously, I’d let these things get into me and force a smile on my face til I can’t help it anymore and cry my heart out at night, when my family’s asleep. That is just tiring. That is soooo last year. This time, I’m doing it differently.

The amazing thing about my encounter with anon is that he reminded me of some heart issues that I may have had or may have as of the moment. Looking back at my quiet time with the Lord today, He told me that he loves me and that man looks at the outward appearance but He looks at our hearts… And I was like…. “THAT’S IT!!!”. THAT IS JUST IT. God looks at the heart!!! The reason why I did not feel so bad about what anon told me is that he reminded me of some probable heart issues that need to be dealt with. In a way, his questions had some truth in them.

What if, his questions do not have some truth in it?

Simple. We respond with love. The truth of the matter is, when a person tells you that you are ugly, he is telling that to you given the world’s standard. We should not listen to these lies because it may be mixed with the truth that builds our identity. Our identity is in Christ! The old has gone and the new has come! Let us not forget my favorite line which inspired me in my song “A Masterpiece”. “You are fearfully and wonderfully made!”. God made us fearfully because he delicately designed us, thus knowing every single detail of our bodies. YOU ARE NOT A MISTAKE! You are wonderfully made by Him! You are amazing! You are loved!

Now that we have reminded ourselves that we are beautiful no matter what other people say, let us deal with the more important issue, the heart.

Yes, it is easy to change our outward appearance. Apply make-up, change your clothes into more fashionable ones, etc., but changing what’s on the inside is hard. Trust me, it is hard. Given our walls of pride, it may be hard for us to change our ways. We may close our ears for rebuke or, we may open our ears too much, pity ourselves until, guess what, NOTHING HAPPENS!!! This is the reason why I enjoyed my encounter with anon. He reminded me of my heart issues and instead of closing my ears or opening them too much, I just checked the words to see if they still apply to me. If they don’t I just decided to disregard them, but if they do, I promised myself to take action.

It may be hard to change our ways, our thoughts and our minds, but with God’s grace it is possible! We should not use our own strength, because using our own strength will lead us to hopelessness and disappointment. Instead, we must rely on God’s strength and grace, because only He can change us. May we be open for rebuke. May we have hearts that are open for change and transformation. May we fix our eyes on God, the one who gives us our true identity.

I’d like to end this blog post by quoting my song, Masterpiece. “If you are down and insecure, let me tell you, you are made to soar. Just keep on smiling. Do not mind ’bout what they’ll say just remember who you truly are… You are fearfully and wonderfully made… You are His masterpiece”. Good day and God bless. 🙂

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This is What Love Really is.

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Do you know what love can do? If you don’t, then I’ll tell you.

Love can make a girl go crazy for that boy who’s just too cool to study. Even if he keeps his cool, this guy can still make this girl drool. Lol. See, love can make you rhyme, even if you don’t intend to. Love can make you write, such lovely lovely poetry straight from the vessels of your heart. Actually from your brain, but you just know it’s from your “heart”. Love can make you scream on the inside just cause she said hi to you. Love can make you feel those uninvited butterflies inside of your stomach. Love can make you dream of how sweet tomorrow can bring for the both of you.

Love can make a boy sing songs to a girl he’s really into [even if he doesn’t really sing well and is absolutely shy]. Love can make a guy ready to face rejection, just so he can take a chance of taking this lovely lady out for dinner. Love can make you send messages that you can’t say in front of this person, but just do it anyway because it’s worth the risk. Love can make you sing such lovely melodies, cause you just know you found your harmony.

Love can make some people save their money just to buy someone expensive things. Love can keep you sane and alive ’til those ungodly hours of the day, just to talk to this other person who, at the end of the line speaks of sweet and endearing words. Love can make you do things you never thought you’d ever do. Because love, it maybe a risk, but it’s worth the take. Or is it?

After all those have been said and done, love takes a sudden drift. A swift turn to your left and some sharp turns to your right. Will you be able to keep your sanity if after all of those days, months and years have finally come to and end? All those invested time left for… nothing? Is love still beautiful when all those songs you’ve sung just remind you of the love that’s not alive tonight? Is love still delightful after all those petty things? Things, that made you feel that there are butterflies in your stomach, but suddenly changed into a kick in the gut. And then you just stop to contemplate if love’s worth it all. If love’s worth the pain. Oh I’ll tell you. It is.

If I ask all these to someone I know, you know,  if love is worth the pain, I know he’d say it is, with no hesitation seen in his face.  This someone that I know did not sing goofy songs to win our hearts. This someone I know did not write cheesy poetry out of the love that he felt from the bottom of his heart. This someone I know did not flash his killer smile to get our attention. But I assure you that he took the risk of being in pain. He took the risk of facing rejection. He took the risk of facing death. That’s because to Him, it’s worth it. At the end of the day He said that “it is finished”. You see, to Him, love is worth the sacrifice. If it would mean that you can be with Him forever then He’s willing to take the risk. He was willing to take the risk. He willingly took the risk. And after the third day, He rose again telling you, “Hey. I love you. And you may reject me, but I still love you. You may hurt me, but it is worth it. The pain that I endured is worth it. YOU ARE WORTH IT. You are worth it because I LOVE YOU.”

And that is what love is. Not your cheesy tumblr kind of love. God is love. Oh yes, you saw that right, I was talking about Jesus! JESUS LOVES YOU. He willingly endured the cross that was supposed to be for us. He took that and took all our sins just for us to be saved. He left His comfort just for us to be in comfort. Imagine how great is his love for you! Imagine what this love is! Imagine what His will is for your life! His good pleasing and perfect will. At the end of the day, it is finished.

YOU can accept this perfect love. YOU can avail of this promised “eternal life” with Him. YOU can be His. Wanna know how? Comment below and let’s talk about it. You are blessed. YOU, You are worth it, says The Lord.

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Life Lessons, Personal, Places

Life Lately: A Little Spontaneity

Last April 21, 2015 was the most, I must say, spontaneous day of my entire existence. You see, if you know me personally, you would know that I’m a very uptight person and plans, such unplanned, surprise plans are just a little too uncomfortable and a little too overwhelming for me. So here’s how my day went. I went to school freaking out because of my oral exam in Introduction to Philosophy. I wasn’t done reading the book yet so I hurried my way to school in order to practice with my group mates. I forgot to bring my school ID and my iPad because I thought I’m not going to our scheduled Pinto Art Museum trip. See, before going to school, I found out that I don’t have enough money to spend. Anyway, my college best friend urged me to go to Pinto Art Museum with them given that she’ll pay for the expenses. Well, I consulted my mom and well, she gave me enough money to go and enjoy the trip.

We ate at a restaurant in UP town center (my first time!) and their food’s delish. Sorry no pictures. Left my iPad. After eating a scrumptious meal, we started our long journey to Antipolo. (Well I was asleep during the whole time so I can’t say much about the “long” drive). When we got there, white-walled structures welcomed us. It was paradise for my eyes. It was certainly a great way to end the stressful term.

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This is a candid shot of me looking at artwork, shot by Mikee Constantino. I edited a bit, but it is not mine. Credits to him.

I won’t spoil the fun, if you wanna know more about the place, visit Pinto Art Museum. They are open Tuesdays to Sundays. 9am-6pm. After giving our eyes a treat, we went and gave our tummies a treat by buying some amazing drinks from Pinto Cafe. This ended our tour. Their prices in their cafe vary so better bring that wad of cash. After finishing our drinks, we went Mikee’s car and decided to go home. He dropped me and my best friend in a certain area near my best friend’s place. (I was supposed to ride the LRT going home). And just when I thought that the day of spontaneity is done, God surprised me with another treat. Koleen invited me to sleep over their house (well it was more of me, teasing her that I’ll sleep there). They were so hospitable and gave me everything that I needed for the night.

My point in this post is that we must learn to go with the flow. There are times when we plan so much that when that planned event doesn’t work out, we would look at God and say, “why now, God”. I remember something in the Bible which goes like this: Many are the plans of your heart, but God’s plans prevail. I believe that God is teaching me to be a little bit spontaneous, because as an overachiever, when things don’t go as planned, I tend to go away from Him, thinking that my plans are better than His. He reminded me that He is sovereign over every aspect of my life and that I should learn how to be flexible with the major and minor changes that He will do in my life, because when I do, he’d be able to work through me, more.

What about you? Are there any spontaneous events that ever happened in your life? What have you learned given these experiences? 😉

This is a candid shot

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